these past two weeks have been difficult for me, with all of the things i've been trying to do. i get to wake up every morning and look upon the day with newfound dread. it's true! i think that this is in part due to the pleasant turn in the weather; getting out of bed seems that much less desirable when there's a pleasant morning breeze, a warm attractive body next to you, and only a few hours of sleep under your belt. (not that i sleep with a belt on, mind you. i mean, it's just a figure of speech, you know.)
but even were the weather still incredibly hot and unbearable, i think i'd still have a hard time getting up to face the day. i'm waiting for some things to come through at my job, and i've been a little anxious about that. additionally, we've been planning a big event for tomorrow evening, and it's been a big pain trying to get everything under control. these things at work, on top of having a veritable jungle outside of my back-door, a huge pile of dirty laundry in my room, no work clothes in my dresser because of said pile, occasional night duty, bunches of squash sitting on my kitchen table making "cook me" eyes at me, regularly having to round up kids for all-day events at work while still being behind on all of my paperwork, going through withdrawal from one of my coworkers who was on vacation, and no idea of how i'm going to get better at this drawing business. life has been wearing me out of late.
i am not really whining. no really, i'm not. i'm just saying i'm tired, for various reasons. i know plenty of you folks wake up each day feeling that same dread. the panic in your head explodes for a moment as you realize that yes, you really do need to get up and get dressed and go to work. and yes, you really do have to come back home after a long day of work to a long list of things that you still need to do for yourself even though you don't have the time to do it. it's not uncommon, and you couldn't convince me otherwise. just do me a favor and take the moment to relax and remember that things will be okay when the panic wave hits. and remember to do something for yourself to maintain some sanity. otherwise, you too may resort to growling instead of using words.